need2behealthy

Well Day 1 went pretty doggone on well. I went to 4 different grocery stores yesterday, I was in so much pain when I got home last night I was in tears. I was crying asking my husband how am I supposed to exercise knowing this is what I have to look forward to? The pain was unbelievably excruciating in my feet and legs. My doctor says that I need to move them. But I truly believe there is something wrong here. I just feel that I should not be in this much pain. Well, it doesn’t matter because I have to move, I don’t care if it is just to the corner and back I have to move. Maybe I can go back to looking up videos of low impact aerobics and working my way up. At least it is something I would enjoy. Still working on the exercise plan.

The food plan however is all worked out. I went ahead and bought vegetables yesterday. Tons of vegetables.

Collard Greens
Cucumbers
Pasilla chiles
Mushrooms
2 kinds of lettuce (Butter and red leaf)
Squash
Beautiful Bell Peppers (red, orange, and yellow)
Regular Cabbage
Baby Bok Choy
and last but not least Asparagus

The list of meat I purchased is way to long
Lots and lots of chicken and fish but also a little pork.

In addition I purchased coconut oil which I am super excited to try.

My day yesterday went pretty well, I did not however get in as much water as I plan to every day. Didn’t have any to do so but I purchased ton of water last night so going forward that should not be an issue. I have decided that I will not be allowed to drink anything like crystal light or sugar free soda until I get in at least 100 ozs of water in each day. That will be my incentive.

Day 2 here I am let’s hope it goes as well as Day 1.

I am loving my membership at Low Carb Friends (LCF) so far I have to say this has been the best membership in terms of support that I have found. I recently posted on this blog as well as on my journal on LCF how there are things that I miss that I WILL do again.

There is a friend on LCF who is such an amazing inspiration to me. She has lost a ton of weight and I feel she definitely understands the place I am in now mentally and emotionally. Here was her response to my posting which I now have to totally add to my list as well, with only 1 modification.

Not being able to fit in a booth at a restaurant
People asking when the baby is due!
Asking for a seat extender on an airplane
Fitting in an airplane bathroom
Being able to walk all over NYC and shop without worrying when my legs and feet would hurt
Running
Jumping
Wondering if a plastic lawn chair would hold my fat butt
Being too fat to ride the dolphin at the swim with the dolphins in Mexico that I paid $150 to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Not being able to haul myself up on a catamaran in the Caribbean! And needing 4 little guys to heave to pull me in!
Finding out I was not a jellyfish but I have bones, actual bones!!!- I could never feel them before! That is the most exciting thing, laying in bed and saying what is this bone or this muscle? LOL
Not being able to sleep on an air mattress
Shopping only at Lane Giant and Avenue, I will never set foot in those 2 stores again!!!!!!!
Watching football and they talked about a 300 pound big bruiser and I thought I wish I was as big as him

My additions are as follows:
Having to purchase two seats on an airplane or having the fear that they will make me get off because I am too heavy.
Never using an airplane or bus restroom.
Bringing my own chair to my friends for the fear that I make break theirs (It has happened)
All of these things are going to become a part of my past beginning tomorrow. Because I’m going to do everything I can to change my future.

Being obese, there are so many things that I can’t do that I will be able to do again. I’m sure this list will be an evolving one.

Crossing my legs

- I miss crossing my legs. Crossing my legs to me is such a lady like thing to do.

Riding amusement rides

- I used to be a Magic Mountain junkie. I think about the fact that my daughter has never been to any of my childhood favorite spots and that is basically because I can’t enjoy it with her right now.

Taking a shower effortlessly

- When I shower it’s like I walked a mile it is something that is so tasking for me.

Grocery Shopping

- I do still grocery shop but not without an electric buggy.

Dancing

- I used to be that chick that would be on the dance floor for hours (especially if the music was right) Now I dance in my chair

Strutting

- When I used to walk, I walked into a room as if I was the one paying the bills, it was a level of confidence that I had. Now I walk with so much pain that it strutting is the last thing on my mind or for that matter that I am even capable to do.

As I mentioned I am sure this list is going to be one that will continually grows. Oh how I can’t wait to my change of life begins.

Funny sad not funny ha ha!!!  I have been at this whole weight thing for a long time.  I look back in all of my previous posts even on this site and I think OMG!!!  How could I still be in the same place now 2 years later.  It is so old!!  There needs to be progress!!!  Something has to change and something has to be different!!!!

 But what?

Well I’m a little over a week and so far so good.  I’m a little tired today but I am sure that is from my crazy eratic schedule.  But for the most part I feel pretty good.  I received alot of rest today.  I plan on measuring the various portions of my body this evening so I can start tracking that as well.  I don’t want to be this person that is absorbed with weighing myself and measuring myself, as I feel that it can be a distraction as well as a discouragement.  Once a month or once every other week I think would be good.   I think I plan on doing the once a month weigh in as it just seems more appropriate. 

Yesterday, I did pretty good.  I ate a bunless burger with cheese, bacon, grilled onions and mushrooms, with sliced tomatoes.  The problem is that was all I ate.  I went through a little drama yesterday and unfortunately didn’t really get the opportunity to eat probably like I should have.  My day yesterday unfortunately also kind of made me forget to do my blog which is supposed to be the catalytic difference in my diet this time.  At least I hope.  We shall see!!

Today is my 7 th day on this diet and I wake up this afternoon on a Sunday wanting something that tastes really good.  I expected this to come about soon but not this soon.  Here is now where my lack of willpower could use a super boost.  I think if I can make it over the hump of 2 weeks of my induction I will be ok. 

I have been dealing with this weight now for most of my adult life.  It is now to a point where if I don’t do something and do something quick I will probably be dead by the time I reach 45.

I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired!!!